to henry miller; whom i envy so much

"To hell, to hell with balance! I break glasses; I want to burn, even if I break myself. I want to live only for ecstasy. Nothing else affects me. Small doses, moderate loves, all half-shades, leave me cold. I like extravagance, heat. Letters which give the postman a stiff back to carry, books which overflow from their covers, sexuality which bursts the thermometer! I’m neurotic, perverted, destructive, fiery, dangerous - lava, inflammable, unrestrained."

— Anaïs Nin

the saga of gosta berling

Cecil Beaton, who would go on to photograph Garbo in instances like above, recounts the first time he met Greta Garbo at a party held by Grand Hotel director Edmund Goulding.

Before the party broke up, Garbo asked Beaton a pointed question, “Are you happy?”

“Yes,” he answered.
“It’s so easy to say ‘Yes,’”
“And you?” he asked.

“Tomorrow I go to work with a lot of people who are dead,” she sighed. “It’s so sad. I’m an onlooker. I’ve passed being active in life. It’s not a question of time and age—but it’s just what you are yourself. One doesn’t do the things one doesn’t want to do”


(Source: swintons, via deuxoiseaux)

fancy a fucking highschool crush

being the imp that diego was, he desperately tries to reminisce his highschool science teacher...and attempted to incorporate this to the nature of his job as of the moment: (an attempt to prevent the thought of continuous non productivity)


diego: teacher, teacher..wrong spelling wrong?
ms. punane: kailan ba naging tama ang mali?
diego: deer caught on a headlight*


this ridiculously random thought presented two talking points:

• that day diego fell in love. with sarcasm. nearly fifteen years after, she became his bitter suicidal enemy.

• had he the power of google he would've retorted with the eloquence of jamaican vocabulary via google translation.

a lionel richie kind of love

This one made my day:

thank you earth, thank you for the weekend, for the bludgeoned, beaten, breathe of a corpse. lifeless.
this week i learned a few things:

• when supposedly smart people mistake sarcasm for light hearted humour, theyre really not that smart. they just think they are.

• i learned that sometimes the things in life youve been longing for a significant amount of time are those that simply pass away. and you have nothing - absolutely can't do anything to have it, or even witness it (ie. morrissey concert in manila this 13th).

• on top of the country's pressing national issues like starvation, corruption, political embarassment fiascos - cebu made it a top priority to consolidate city ordinance 2241. brilliant guys! apir beh!

• i watched the entire pilot season of homeland last weekend. it made me realize, that perception has always been a clean cut key to any dirty travesty. two nouns and two adjectives mixed can very well make a diffrent idea.

• i seriously hope it rains in the summer party. or at least something very surprising. at least i get to distinguish who came in just for the free food.

hunger royale?

could it just be me, or hunger games is really similar to battle royale?

god bless indifference

my friend the PETA girl

"cannibals," i said.
"what?" she asked.
"if you said, we are what we eat, does that make cannibals more human than us? or perhaps even you?"
"fuck you." and she left.

Bon Appétit!